It’s been two years. I worry that I should remember the exact date of such a traumatic/life-changing experience but I’ve started to be unsure whether it was actually April. Is this cause I don’t want to remember? I also knew his name but I can’t for the life of me remember it anymore. I don’t know if I’d want to. I hadn’t even been thinking about it but I’ve felt like utter shit the past couple weeks and I think it’s a subconscious thing or something. I just feel so lonely all the time. I felt lonely even when I was with two of my closest friends. I don’t even know why I’m writing this, it hasn’t helped but why not eh?
Revivre L’infini Rire (Chère Katie)
Her cherry lips part, more elegantly
than a rose has ever blossomed,
to set free the sweetest laugh.
It echoes in my head,
it is all I hear
and all I want to hear
sings every word when she speaks.
Her chocolate hair cascades with grace,
flowing over her shoulders.
Her head is thrown back
so her gaze lands on stars
that look so alive.
Their light does not burn
her light is nearly blinding.
Her strawberry flushed cheeks are peppered
with faint freckles that catch my eye
like scattered specks of glitter.
She steals my breath
and stalls my heart
with just a smile.
I need to see that smile again.
Her eyes are like glistening, clear water
of a stream reflecting the pale sky
and seem to look at my soul
as if it is locked in a glass body.
And my eyes refuse to blink
from fear of missing even one second
of her fire,
of her beauty,
things to say to bugs when science finally unlocks the secrets of human-bug communication:
- im not hurting you i am taking you to a safe place
- do you eat weird crumbs cause i found some im willing to share
- you can bite me if you want but id rather be no-bite friends
- i like your big colorful eyes, very stylish
- please dont crawl into my sleeves
- (sings a duet with a cricket)